This time of the year SUCKS

I really fucken hate this time of year. The amount of bad compare to the amount of good in my life is overwhelming. Among the negative things is my mom and dad's death, multiple grandparents, my several friends. This year alone has seen the death of a cousin, having to put down one of the best pets I've ever had and more money issues then I care to think about. And that just me, I know multiple friends who have had in the family recently and major medical issues this year.

Right now I can help but wonder if we have so many holidays around this time in the rare hopes that it will help offset all the suckage that happen this time of the year.

Now don't get me wrong, there are good memories from this time also. A year ago this last Sunday I married Brit and it’s the one shining moment I can hold on to right now.

Today when I took Brit to lunch after putting Falcor down I realize just how low I was feeling when I order a Whiskey and coke without a second thought. I rarely drink Alcohol these days and I can't remember the last time I had an alcohol before the sun went down, let alone before noon.

Worse part is I don't care, and once I get through legal contracts I need to do for work I think I'm going to break out something strong and let go.

Right now I'm so angry and pissed off I really just want to hit something till it breaks.